Every woman should penetrate her own vagina for the first time. Clitoral stimulation with vaginal penetration - the combination orgasm - is orgasmic bliss.
Learn how to penetrate your vagina and engage your pc muscle to achieve orgasm and enhance your orgasms.
When some aspect of penetration sex is painful, don't do it.
You're using sex to torture yourself. Become a celibate priestess for a week or two.
You have to masturbate daily and move through pain, discomfort, and numbness before you get to pleasure.