How to Use Betty's Barbell

Dear Dr. Betty,
I thought I knew my body quite well, but I started wondering recently, just for the sake of curiosity, about my hymen. I have read that it is half-moon shaped and that sits on back inner wall of the vaginal canal, but can I see it? I got out a mirror, and I looked at my pretty lips, my clitoris, and all the other lovely things I'm familiar with, but when I tried to look inside...it was all just collapsed pinkness.
Dear Dr. Betty,
I apologize if this is a strange question, or if it makes little sense, I don't know how to word it exactly. I was reading an article some time ago about the hymen and how it isn't really what most people think it is. I had seen a video of yours previously that dealt with a similar subject.
Dear Betty,
I was raped as a child on more than one occasion. I don't know exactly how many times, because not all of the memories are clear, but they all took place within the same couple of months. I didn't tell anyone for years, so it wasn't in my medical file, and I hid it even from my family.
Hello Betty,
So I am trying to find out if my hymen is still intact I took some pictures but I am still unsure, as I can't see the opening but I can feel it, I stopped using tampons and have not had sex however when I try to spread the minora labia especially going down to the perineum it feels like am pulling or stretching something and I feel kind of sore after wards even with my legs wide open.Thank you for your time your feedback is well anticipated and appreciated.