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The Monday after a Bodysex worskhop weekend is always a mixture of exhilaration and exhaustion. There's just so many beautiful visuals, smells, and sounds - transcendent moments and deep transformation that it can be alot to process. This group was magical.

Usually, we don't know any of the women who'll be in the circle. They book over email and we never know who's going to walk through the door. But this time, we knew several women in the group. Somehow that had me a bit more on edge because I wanted everyone to have a positive experience. I guess there was a certain sense of performance anxiety.

When I set up the circle with the back jacks, towels, pillows and place the mystic wands, almond oil, and barbells on the trays, it's a solemn moment. Betty always speaks about the "temple" and that's exactly what her living room becomes...we are the high priestesses ready to receive our priestesses in training.

I love getting naked and waiting for the doorbell to ring. When I open the door, it's always big smiles and being nude makes everyone feel more comfortable about taking off their clothes. One by one the women arrived and took their place in the circle.

This group was much younger than our other groups. The majority of the women were in their early twenties. I thought to myself, "yes, every woman should have this experience in their twenties", and realized that in any other context the assumption would be that I'd feel competitive with these women. Instead, I felt proud to be able to be apart of their experience. That is the essence of true sisterhood.

When each woman answered the questions - how do you feel about your body, how do you feel about your orgasm - the tragedy of living in a male-centric culture is so apparent. Eating disorders, sexual abuse, rape, depression, gay guilt...all circling around us. No girl makes it to womanhood unscathed.

Then we went right into genital show & tell which is the real healing. This time Betty decided to go first, "I want you all to see what a 84 year old pussy looks like so you don't fear age". The women looked at Betty's sex organ with complete respect and interest. It's so comforting to know that your cunt will still work, that you'll still have orgasms into your 80's. Your hair will go white and thin a bit but you'll clit will still function.

I went next and then the rest of the woman sat next to Betty looking at their vulvas in the mirror with a bright light while we all looked on. There's something so beautiful about these moments. It's not sexual. It's not exhibition. It's claiming your sex organ and displaying it so other women can experience the range in genital styles. Betty always says that she's never seen an ugly vulva...and it's true. They're all beautiful. They're all unique.

It's fascinating to see the change in the women's demeanor from Day 1 to Day 2. Day 2 they walk in with a new confidence...all smiles...and can't wait to get naked in the circle. Several of the women had gone out dancing the night before and described how they were crazy on the dance floor without caring who was watching or what they looked like as the crowd looked on. There was one moment when a woman shared how genital show & tell had changed her. Her exact words, "I feel like I took my body back". Our bodies are controlled by our families, religion, the state, pop culture - feminism is really about taking our bodies back. There's nothing you can do that's more subversive than claiming your sex organ.

As we moved on to erotic recess, the energy in that room was hypnotic. I found myself having orgasms in tandem with one woman in the group. I would hear her start to moan and grunt and I couldn't hold back. Then I rolled up to show them the pillow fuck. You place your pillow on the floor with your towel over it and straddle your vibrator on the pillow. What's so stimulating is that your looking at the other women and you can watch their orgasms. Seeing an authentic orgasm ripple through a woman's body is the most beautiful thing in the world. I rode the orgasm wave until my body was covered in sweat and my arms were shaking.

What I like most about erotic recess is that it's so natural. Some women keep on vibrating while others nibble on cookies or chat before going back for more pleasure. Being in a room filled with positive female energy just makes you orgasm. I don't how to describe it really. It's not about love or lust...there's no performance or agenda...you're alone but you're together. It's one of my favorite feelings.

We follow erotic recess with group massage which takes it all to another level. We break up into two groups: one woman is massaged by 5 woman at once. We rotate front and back and everyone gets 10 minutes per side. There's something so powerful about non-sexual touch. Running your hands over so many diverse bodies is another healing. Stretch marks...supple flesh...age spots...all become beautiful. You wear our lives on our bodies. Women are warriors and our body scars are a testiment to our strength.

This morning my inbox was filled with thank you notes and personal stories about how transformed everyone felt. It was a special group and I'm honored to have been chosen by Betty to help create this experience.

Thank you to all the women who joined us in the circle and their vulvas:

Clitty Anne
Roxy
Cunny
Voilet
Infinity
Monsieur
Opal
Ruby Spade
Eve
Scout