Confessions

Betty and I spent the weekend in the Catskills at a tantra conference. For those of you who don't know what tantra is it's basically eastern principles of sexuality. We were their keynote speakers.

Driving up to the Shandelee Lake Inn was no easy task. My gps was fucked, my mapquest directions were shit, and we drove in circles for 30 minutes. Then I decided to just relax. I knew I had to head north and west so I would just follow the signs. We arrived by osmosis.

I've recently discovered online chat rooms; they've become a bit addictive, I'm afraid. It's fun to flirt with people and, eventually, to seduce someone...or have them seduce you. It's the ultimate masturbation aid! Nothing like sharing sexual words and images with a stranger to help you get off! Has anyone else done online sex? Would you be willing to share a story or two?

Sherman

So I'm going to preface this with a statement: I don't find Prez Obama attractive.  He's not my type.  I'm more of a Bill Clinton fan (it's not about race it's about sensuality).  I'm an equal opportunity date.  Frankly, Obama is a bit too goody goody for me.

However, I keep having this recurring sex dream where I'm with Obama on Air Force One - we're just talking etc and then he kisses me and I wrap my legs around him in quite the Body Heat moment.  Then we have amazing sex.  And I've had this dream like 10 times already.

I was thinking that maybe it's about power.  I am a bit of a power whore.  But I think it means something more.  Betty will totally have the answer when I head into the office today.  God damn it, Obama, get out of my dreams!

I am a 34-year-old female and have never had sex with another woman.  I've been thinking a lot lately about what it would be like.  I would love to have that sexual experience at leat one time.  So far I've been too timid.  I'd love to know from all you ladies what your 1st sexual experience with another woman was like!

 Seeing Christina Cicchelli's website prompted me to start this topic. Since quite a lot of you know me as whiny 20-something webmistres I hope this post will somewhat change your opinion. Normally I'm a bit whiny but it's not a characteristic I want to be known for.

Hello everyone.

I just have to confess that one of the reasons why I love sex and women is women's fashion!

I love how a woman can make herself look so beautiful and attractive with fashion. I love a beautiful woman with a good sense of style.

I love beatiful, chic, fashionistas!

I love beatufiul women who make themselves beautiful with hair or perfume.  I also love looking at beautiful women making themslves look beautiful with accories (such as earrings, necklaces, rings, bracelets, and especially chic, expensive bags!).

Most notably, I love women who wear chic, expensive, designer fashions, such as Dolce & Gabbana, Versace, Roberto Cavalli, Prada, or Chanel.

Hello everybody.

While I'm writing this post, I'm using a vibrating butt plug, and I love it.

Betty inspired me to explore male anal lovemaking because of her book "Sex For One", page 139. On this page, she tells about a friend of hers who masturbates while sitting on a dildo to put him in touch "with the divine female principle of opening and receiving". That's what inspired me to explore it: "the devine female principle of opening and receiving".

I enjoy masturbating, I love, love, love my orgasms, and I also enjoy partner sex.

I'm 17 years old and do not think that I'm too young for this.

Today my mom and i were sitting at the computer and I accidentally clicked on an add and it opened up a porn site. My mom's immediate reaction was, "WHAT are you watching!?" in her lovely, accusing tone.

I'm shaking everywhere, because her eraction scared me and made me feel extremely ashamed for enjoying things like that.

Is there anything I could do? I really would rather not talk to her about it, because she really is a prude and notorious for her intolerance.

A while back I dated some chick who yelled at me to "Go Deeper" when I was already going in as deep as I could!  I felt so ashamed.

Wrote a blog entry about it today...things have MUCH improved since then

“And my Dick Runs Deep, So Deep……”
http://mistermanpower.net/blog/?p=205

All I keep reading (both in the forum and of men's comments on women's pics in the gallery) is that men are loving the huge inner labia. They've even posted to go visit large-labia-loving websites... Other people posting to not get labia plasty and that "real women" don't look like clamshells or like "porn stars"...

Now this is REALLY starting to make me feel like crap. Because I have NATURALLY very small inner labia, and with all these comments that men are loving the large labia and telling large-labia'd women not to get rid of them, that they love to suck on them, etc. etc. etc. it is REALLY wearing thin on my self esteem.

If you all LOOOOOOVVVVVEEEEE these huge dangling labia, then where does that leave me?

I went to a band debut at the knitting factory.  It was so much like Pseudo that I had to text Steve.  And the band that played was from Sierra Lieonne...I was transported back to 9/11. 

How do I explain what it felt like?   I spoke to my mom today and shared my experience in an effort to help her cope with not being accepted.  She said how wise I was and how understanding and asked how I got that way...my answer: I had a hard time and I want to let go and love so that I can live a full life.

There is a woman who works at the local Safeway.  She is always friendly.  She has a nice body and gigantic breasts.  I have fantasized for many months about telling her that I think she has a beautiful body and that I would love to see her nude and masturbate in front of her.  I know most women would be completely turned off to such a proposition.  Any ideas on how to approach her? 

My man and I participated in our first orgy! Never in my real life did I expect something like that to happen to me, and it's all thanks to Betty suggesting that I contact my local polyamory group. Then a couple from the group invited us to their Beltane party (Pagan/Wiccan May Day type ritual, for those of you who don't know. A ritual for pleasure and fertility), and you can guess what happened after that. I'm not even sure how many people were involved but it was more than 9. We had so much fun! It perhaps wasn't the most orgasmic experience I've ever had, but I had plenty and I just loved seeing so many people getting off together in the same room. I hope that most of the parties I attend in the future end up something like that ;)

After 10 years....this morning....I finished the final paperwork for my divorce.  Yes, it's been a long ass time coming.  I married for love and when it fell apart I just walked away literally.  I left with 2 suitcases.

I always told myself that I put off the divorce because i couldn't see him without getting back together.  I added his substance abuse and it made for the perfect don't-get-too-close-because-I'm-fragile cock block.  And I couldn't let go of the marriage.  It was my security blanket in a fucked up way.  I say fucked up because I was the one who covered our expenses while we were in grad school, typed all his papers, and ran the show. 

I'm only posting this because Betty never checks the boards.  If she knew what I was feeling, she'd skin me alive.  Well, chastise me and make we swear an oath of celibacy.

Saturday night we went to a dinner party at a neighbor's apartment.  There were about 15 of us including a 12 year old girl, Giovanna.  My biological clock is deafening and I found myself sitting at the kitchen counter talking with Giovanna about what's going on in her life.  She's been shooting and editing videos with her girlfriend and wants to do a cooking show.  I was amazed.  She's so beautiful but above that is so poised and intelligent.  There is no insecurity here at all.  She was totally comfortable talking with me and expressing herself.