anal play

I wanna have sex with my b'friend. But I'm a virgin. I'm worried about it. My family will never accept me if I lose my virginity. BUt I cant get orgasm while having anal sex. Dunno what to do. I fake my orgasm...right b4 it hurts badly, now I'm used to it. They say, I'll have an orgasm after a few times. Buy.... I haven't had an orgasm yet. :(((

A few years ago, I spent an afternoon with Betty in a private session that was "life changing" in a way I could never have anticipated. During a private "anal eroticism" session, it took Betty over an hour to get me to the place where I was able to touch and view my anus. She suggested we rename it my "buddy-hole" so I could see it is a "pleasurable friend" and not a "scary den of germs and disease." Old childhood fears stood in the way of extremely pleasurable orgasms that eventually happened when I was able to stimulate my clitoris and the anal area at the same time.