My Vibrator Memories

Tue, 06/10/2014 - 13:19
Submitted by Betty Dodson

Dr.Betty,

I've been remembering all of my vibrators, some DIY. Even if I said they didn't satisfy me, it was because I as an adolescent, I wanted to be with someone, so i felt masturbation was the next best thing, for people lacking something. They said it was for singles, weirdos, the mentally ill, the shy or the ugly. A ''straight'' girl who can't have a boyfriend must have something wrong.

Of course that insecurity would drive me many times to ''quickies'' because I didn't feel worthy of pleasure being alone. But if you're a boy it's more 'accepted, a given or a necessity.

When i was about 7, my best friend had a pool and to fill it the walls had water spouts so we would cling to the walls until we where shivering. Before this it was the wooden nob on an armchair, a teddy bear nose (poor teddy, I don't think he saw that one coming). Then I discovered my grandmothers 60s massager at 11 and probably my first conscious body orgasm. The the dial was broken only on high so I used with my clothes on.

One day while using it, it started to smoke when one of he cables had burned. Imagine the scenario, trying to hide the ''pleasure weapon," opening the windows and making up a story about my painful thigh. Next the mobile phone with no awareness of radiation. I saw in a film with someone getting on top of the washing machine, so tried it too. Next I had a string mouse toy all fuzzy and furry pulling the string every 20 seconds, I suppose it helped me build up energy, but now I just laugh thinking about it. Then another massager that was battery driven in the shape of a turtle. The last one was an electric toothbrush but instead of a brush a squash ball was on top..... there are probably more but I would have to dig a little deeper,Ii would use them sporadically probably because of difficultly to access so manual was the preference.

This was all before I was 17, from then on I started to focus on manual. I can't remember why exactly. Maybe I didn't want to feel dependent on a machine, as if it was less ''natural'' (& if I ended up stranded in a desert island?, would i still be orgasmic without a vibrator?) Then in my 20s I stopped vibrators completely influenced by ''the multi-orgasmic woman'' I was afraid of losing my orgasmic power.

It's incredible how we ''naturally'' seek. I was never censored at home but still society got to me.....but not enough to take away my pursuit of pleasure.

I will take your advice and: "Enjoy, observe and keep an open mind."

Liberating women one orgasm at a time

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