Dear Dr. Betty,
I'm a 28yo female with a healthy sex drive. My current lover has an incredible cunnilingus fetish that I am happy to help satiate often.
I used to masturbate a lot as a preteen. One time I used a permanent pen, and the clip part of the cap poked me and tore some skin inside my vagina. I was to embarrassed to talk about it or see if anything was wrong, I couldn't have been older than 12. I've since had pap smears and been told everything is fine.
The problem is that I still have this tear, that now looks like a 1/2 inch long tail that sticks out at the top of my vaginal opening, and it makes me extremely self conscious when receiving cunnilingus because I know it doesn't look normal. I have had a happy and healthy sex life without negative experiences or criticisms as a result of this, but I still personally would like to remove it.
Would this be safe to remove, and how would I go about finding a gyn to do this? I am very shy talking about this, I've only told one partner and one gyno. I no longer live in the same state.
I've seen many thousands of vulvas over the years in both the workshops and my private practice. They are ALL different and unique. Many have small skin tags and each woman felt like you do: that there was something "wrong" with whatever mole or bump or skin tag we came across. STOP fussing over it. Obviously your BF could care less.
Yes, you can have it removed BUT why bother? If you chose to do that because you are still ashamed of fucking your pen which is quite natural for any healthy teen girl. (I fucked my jumping rope handle and a small bottle). For years I thought I was sexually perverted for doing such a terrible thing. Now I realize it just meant I was curious to understand my body by exploring all the available openings. Today I have an elaborate collection of dildos and butt plugs so I'm still an explorer of my available openings.
If you decide to have it cut off, then you must locate a doctor and make an appointment. It will most likely be an in-office procedure. However, I encourage you to leave it alone and stop being ashamed. Like I said, experimentation is quite natural for any healthy teen girl who is interested in sex and her body.